Dearest Yoshi,
I can still recall how tiny and cute you were when you first came. You were so scared to come out of the bag, you were staring at me and your new home. I wanted to grab you and hug you so tight but I was too scared that I might squish you cos you look so fragile. Can you still remember how Biancs and I brainstormed of what name to give you? Biancs insisted to keep your name Chester. I know there’s a name that best suits your cuteness. I thought of calling you Brownie, Niggs and all sorts that would describe your color until everyone agreed to call you Yoshi. My baby Yoshi. My baby Yosh Yosh.
Months passed and you started to grow. I was so happy when you started following me around the house. I was so proud of you when you learned how to fetch. I would throw my slippers so far for you fetch it, you were so small walking with a slipper in your mouth, a slipper double your size. What made more proud was when you started barking, at first I thought you’d turn out to be a quiet dog but I was wrong. I was so proud of you that on the following day I went straight to the mall and spent all my money to buy you your doggie needs. I did not care if that was the last cash I had, I was so proud of you.
Remember how excited I was to give you your first bath? You would run around the bathroom cos you didn’t want to get wet until you got used to it and sometimes I would catch you sneaking into the bathroom playing with the pail of water and would run away from me to hide under your favorite spot, under the couch in the living room. Chasing you around the house to spray your cologne that you hate was fun. You would bark at me and I would pretend to stop. Yoshi, from that day I knew you were growing up to be cute rascal.
I will never forget the day when I found my room messy, papers, my pillows and my other things were on the floor and saw my bag slightly ripped. I would yell at you and would start to ignore you. You would always use your charms and start acting funny. Yoshi I miss the way you climb up and down the stairs, how you jump up to my bed to squeeze yourself in. I miss everything about you. The was you stare at me with your tongue sticking out, the sound of your sniffing and your bark that always got me into trouble cos I would lie to my dad of the time I usually get home.
Yoshi you’ve only seen the outside world once. You were too lazy to walk around so we ended up carrying you like the baby you were. All those British girls thought you were so cute and even approached to ask for my permission to pet and play with you. Remember the American family that won’t stop calling your name cos you won’t stop looking at them whenever they call your name? Yes Yoshi, you were a star on your first day out.
I miss hugging you while I try to put you to sleep. I miss watching you sleep and sleep-bark and sleep-walk. Awww Yoshi. You were my sweetest escape from the stress of reality.
What happened? I woke up one morning seeing you under my bed looking so sad and weak. I knew something was wrong cos you never stay under my bed. I left my door opened cos I know you would jump up to sleep lying on my arm. But no. I wanted to blame the doctors but I know it’s not their fault. I was in shock. I was supposed to visit you remember? I told you I would come back to check on you and to change your clothes, not until I got this call from the doctor telling me you left already. I did not want to believe her. For a minute there I wanted to become deaf and blind. Time stopped. I wanted to make myself believe that it was only a nightmare. I was in denial of what I heard. Yoshi… I would not stop whispering your name right after your doctor called me. I started shaking and tears started falling, and then only I knew it was for real. It hurts Baby Yoshi. And its still hurting.
You were loved by everyone most especially Mama who only sees you on Skype. Why did you have to leave so soon? We were supposed to take a trip to the airport. Yoshi, my heart felt like it was being torn and crushed into pieces when I saw you wrapped up and lifeless. I did not know what to do, my mind was blank, I was dumbfounded. I wanted to hug you so tight but I couldn’t.
Yoshi I know you are up there already playing with the other cute puppies like you. Everything happened so quick. Yoshi, I know you won’t stop on your chewing so you’re probably chewing on the clouds. Watch after us. We love you Baby Yoshi. Shakur, your mom loves you so much. I saw how sad she was when she visited you. Everyone loves you. I love you Yoshi, so much. It will be hard opening up again. You are irreplaceable.
Visit me in my dreams Baby Yoshi. I will wait.
This will be the last time I will cry. I love you Yoshi. I will always think of all the happy moments we had together. I will miss you. A lot.
My one and only Baby Yoshi…. I love you.
